Why I'm starting to blog & some general information.

        As a new years resolution, not solely but as part of my resolution, I wanted to start 'Blogging'. I think that blogging will be a good tool for me to use to vent and rant without restrain. However, I don't know where to start. I have a lot of topics to write about but I don't feel comfortable just jumping in. I care about giving an impression that is accurate and clear of who I am, and so near the beginning I feel like I want to be careful to give an overall image instead of focusing on one topic. I guess a lot of people struggle with this type of stuff when they are starting a personal blog.

        Im still not sure how I feel about the template Ive chosen, I have a vague idea of what I would like to accomplish with this blog. I feel like Ive never had any friends, especially ones who like to talk, and I would like to share ideas on here and get some feedback. Like a conversation with the world, well, with a handful of minds from the world anyway.  I think blogging for me will also be educational in the sense that, when Im frustrated about something I saw on the news or heard someone talking about politics or something I don't fully understand, before writing about it I will probably read into it further before making a fool of myself.

         While I was at work today, I thought about writing about the most common topics on my mind for this particular day. Lately, my weight has been on my mind. Well, its been on my mind ever since I grew old enough to be self conscious. Im not fat, but I do have extra weight. When I think of what I feel like I look like, I imagine in my mind a lean, toned genderless person. Strong in mind and body. But Im definitely not in very good shape. Im healthy, but would struggle to keep running for more than 3 minutes.  My most dominant resolution is to get fit. I started working out, following videos by Zuzana of  http://www.bodyrock.tv/ . Her videos range from circuit training to healthy eating. I instantly became addicted to this girl, she is such an inspiration and I have been doing at least one of her workouts every day. Even thought I don't see any differences yet, I feel more endurance at work and I feel happier over all because I am accomplishing something. I have started doing some additional research on healthy eating, and have already made some changes to my diet. The only thing I haven't even tried to give up is my coffee. I am absolutely addicted and the thought of letting it go is a difficult and unrealistic one for me. I just love it. lol I use crest white strips to counter the caffeine stains on my teeth, if I would just quit coffee I could save that money. Oh well.

        Another thing that is pretty much always on my mind, is what the future holds for me. I am not a believer in fate or karma or destiny. I know that my future is in my hands. That even thought there are external influences, in the end every choice I make is my choice to make. I have applied to college, but am not entirely sure of what exactly I am most interested in pursuing as a career.
        I did poorly throughout elementary school and highschool. I had no vision of the future and no motivation to learn. No interest or discipline. I didn't think about the consequences and it has really come back to bite me in the ass. I am now trying to make the best of what I have. I am interested in a wide range of fields and feel that no matter what I choose I will not quit, and that the people I meet along the way will make at the very least tolerable. I will go into further detail on this subject another time in its own entry.

I feel like I'm forcing things out of my head that I haven't full thought out. So I'm going to take a break and leave my first post as it is. I need to take some time to develop some of these thoughts further so that when I try to share them they will come out easier and in a more structured format.