Stressed

Lately I have been very stressed out. I am stressed over looking at houses, stressed over not working out as hard or as often as I would like to, over my huge lack of motivation, I am lonley, I am stressed over not having any friends, about making a career choice, and where my life is heading in general.

I think that a lot of my stress issues will be solved when I do go to school. I just am feeling uncomfortable with my college choices. I have been accepted to Mohawk for Travel and Tourism, and Graphic Design Creative Studies, and to Niagara College for Graphic Design Advanced Diploma. I have not been accepted (yet) to the Social Services course which I was most looking forward to. But whatever I do decide to go for, I know I will make some friends and have busier days, so I will not be able to dwell on all the things I am frustrated with in my life. But that is still months away.

Im worried that I am going to make the wrong decision, even though I guess there is no wrong decision. Im worried that I am going to go one step too far with my bf and feel trapped by the relationship. I also haven't been reading and feel that I set small goals for myself that I don\t even try to reach on a regular basis, which sets me up for more negative self reflection. Writing in my blog is definitely one thing that I have been ignoring and feeling shitty about, so I am trying to add some more things in it tonight, to give it some substance.